The test was very helpful. I had no idea there was such a thing as social phobia. But I think negative experiences in Cork and Greystones in Ireland contributed. One experience was living in a place where you learned not to be friendly as people would acknowledge you one day and ignore the next. This was never experienced in England but it is now built into my psyche and I know I do it myself now. Cork was a series of negative experiences of bullying at work and in a non-fiction writers group (?)and being 'othered' whereas in England I was just treated like everyone else. Having been a teacher I also found that in Cork when I tried to stop bullying by pupils I got bullied. You start to expect trouble everywhere you go.

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